Listening to Sade's new album "Soldier of Love". How she conveys hope through all her melancholy is simply charming. Her last song which is more like a ballad says "My heart's been a lonely warrior who has been to war so you can be sure your love is in a sacred place". It just reminds me that when you go to dark places in life it just increases your capacity for light; if you can handle it.

On another note, today I am really craving cooked food. Still simple foods like Rice! Quinoa! Just not raw. This is the first day I have started doubting my will power. I might just start weaning off my cleanse now. Why not? They reason I started it in the first place was because my body was telling me " Janet, I need a break. Please clean me". So now if it tells me " I'm tired of being clean" shouldn't I listen? I'm not going to go out and wolf down a piece of garlic & potato pizza from Escape From New York just yet, that would be cruel. But just ease myself back into my normal diet. Last week my plan was to go on the Master Cleanse on the 3rd week. My sister Jessica talked some sense reminding me that without protein my body will just eat my muscle! Also every time I've tried the lemon-cayanne-syrup concoction I end up a crabby mess and nothing about that feels right. Wise words about cleansing from me - don't be so attached to the end goal/result that you don't listen to your body during the process! Bingeing and rebounding from dieting/cleansing is so adolescent. Alright I'm going to go make myself some tea.