The amazing spring weather is bringing me out of hibernation mode. This was my first winter in San Francisco and it rained, drizzled, hailed, poured and even snowed (if you were on floor 10 of a high rise, otherwise slush when it hit the ground). There were huge muddy puddles to splash in (not fun on a run), coats & gloves, and lots of indoor time. I really never felt hibernation mode in San Diego so I was worried I was getting lazy and depressed. Nope, it's just the weather and everyone has to roll with it best they can.
I have been achy and sore all week from two things. First is from massaging too much second is from going to Lauren's yoga class on Tuesday. She really makes sure I get my money's worth by pushing the whole class to the edge. With limbs trembling and sweat pouring, my mind takes a back seat for once. I don't even correct her when she calls me Judy. Since it means "Jewish woman", I wonder if I look Jewish? Oh well she can call me whatever she wants.
Cooking dinner with SomaFM Lush playing and a coconut citrus candle lit in the window. I am so Zen sometimes I amaze myself. On the other hand, I can be so un-Zen I have to roll my eyes. For example; today I got a 60 minute massage at EarthBody in Hayes Valley. The inside is comfy apothecary /jungle experience complete with amber mood lighting. My therapist was so lovely, I found out she's been a massage therapist for 21 years (me= humbled!). Unfortunately during the massage my mind kept saying "you forgot all about my quads" "i don't need attention there i need it in my QL" " agg more head please (scalp massage;)". Then at the end it was like "Fuck! i need 90 minutes". The part of me that always wants more makes it really difficult to be fully present in the moment. As well as the controlling side that knows the perfect way to do everything.
Listening to Sade's new album "Soldier of Love". How she conveys hope through all her melancholy is simply charming. Her last song which is more like a ballad says "My heart's been a lonely warrior who has been to war so you can be sure your love is in a sacred place". It just reminds me that when you go to dark places in life it just increases your capacity for light; if you can handle it.
Sipping some Yogi "Breathe Deep" tea. The qoute says "Serve humanity so that people feel we are kind to them". That does not make any sense to me. I serve simply because I AM kind and also I'm an Aquarius so it's just my calling.
Here I am. In transition to a new space, and new life here in San Francisco. I couldn't ask for a better living condition considering everything. I am two blocks from Golden Gate Park, 5 minutes from three different yoga studios, not to mention in the middle of the Haight! There are lots of characters moseying around.
Finding a place to work, build clientele and community are all things in the forefront of my mind. I'm oh so curious to see how long it'll take to manifest.
Yoga is 99% practice and 1% knowledge. ~Sri Krishna Pattabhi Jois
I have finished my first Yoga Teacher Training with Anne Nowell at Yoganic Studio. It all started May 2008 with 6 ladies craving yoga! Actually it started much before that in my thoughts and dreams, but manifested last year (the year of the Rat, and I'm a Rat). I made some beautiful friends, self-discoveries and shifts towards more expansive awareness.
My personal practice is lacking determination and commitment. Maybe it's because I'm not ready for the changes that will happen when it becomes part of me.
"The most valuable things in life are not measured in monetary terms. The really important things are not houses and lands, stocks and bonds, automobiles and real state, but friendships, trust, confidence, empathy, mercy, love and faith."
- Bertrand Russell
I started being "mostly" vegetarian about 2 years ago to help my digestive system. I had a pretty bad case of IBS and the only thing that significantly helped was cutting out meat and dairy products (as well as most wheat). I would never say I was a vegetarian, only that "I'm not eating meat". I don't like putting myself under a label. This year I started introducing all of those products back into my body mostly because I met a wonderful guy from Texas who is now my boyfriend (Texans are meat eaters! I know it's a label).